Harley Saylor

Coming From Within Harley Saylor

Growing up and feeling 'different' is bad enough... finding out in your late thirties that you have other personalities that come out and take over, can be overwhelming for a person. It doesn't end there. Family and friends are eventually brought into the situation whether they have awareness or not. Most people chalk it up to the person just being a bit weird all the way to being bipolar. Unless the personalities reveal themselves, no one will know their secret. Each person who has multiple personality disorder, or as it's now called, dissociative identity disorder, the personalities are different. The age ranges, gender, tasks, and attitudes are unique to the main person, known as the host. There are those that see this as a person being crazy and not as a surviving mechanism. Some even feel a person is making it up for attention. Trust me, it's not the kind of attention anyone I know would wish for. Having this disorder makes it difficult for relationships to last for long periods. It is a blessing and a curse. There is help out there for those that seek it. It takes courage and support from others to take the journey of becoming integrated. I believe it is important to bring awareness, not for people to criticize or shame, but to understand and be compassionate in order to provide a place the host can begin to heal. I wrote this book over twenty years ago on a typewriter and printed the pages out. I tucked it away because my life was in a state of chaos, depression, panic and sadness. At the encouragement of my daughters and granddaughter, I am sharing my life with the public. This is the first book of several to come. It takes awhile to gather from memory and notes of what took place. In the end, my story will have a happy ending and I am full of love, hope, joy and thankfulness.